Dont think that you know exactly what i am thinking with out asking me.  Dont think that you are the only one that i care about. Dont ever think that you are the only one that can make it better. Dont think that everything i am upset about is about you.  Dont think that i wont cry.  Dont think that i will.  Dont think because thats what you do best.  Dont think that this whole things is about you.  Dont think that you cant talk to me.  Dont think that i dont trust you.  Dont think that i really am happy.  Dont think i wont tell you whats wrong if you ask.  Dont think about talking to others about me.  Dont think that i hate you. Dont think that i love you. Dont think that i want you around. Dont think that i want you to leave.  Dont think at all because thats what you do the best.

wow i sure havent been on here in a long time.  there really isnt a lot that i have to say except a lot sure has happend since i last updated.  but most people already know that....hmmmm not sure what more to say

Jasmine

Oh my gosh today is pi day lol. I have only 5 min till the bell will ring so there isnt much more to say than; My mommy found a puppy by her work and so now we have a 8 week old puppy.  I am so excited. well that is all i have to say.

Jasmine

So here we are almost done with the month and sadly enough things haven't been going all that well. To tell you the truth the past few months have been some of the hardest months in my life, and unfortunately it doesn't look like things will be getting better. I used to not be able to wait till graduation and going to prom but how things are I dread each day coming more as more as things just get worse.  I have never had to deal with anything like this before in my life.  I  have some friends that have but no matter what anyone says no situation is the same by any means.

This is so hard for me to deal with, I have to overcome so many fears just to deal with one thing.  But I'm trying my hardest and it just isn't enough.  For those of you closest to me you know what I am talking about.  And I also know that several of you just want me deal with but its not that simple.  I am not one who likes to talk about these kinds of things openly and this is really the only way for me to get all of my feelings out in the open before I totally have a break down.

I know that I have talked about how much life really is important and not to take it for granted, but I really speak the truth.  Don't let people who are the most important to you slip by.  Don't take the mind set of  "there is always tomorrow to see them"  who is to know if tomorrow they will be there for you to talk to.  I mean for most of us we only have to deal with near death or death every so often, but no one should have to deal with 2 in a matter of 5 months even though one ended well, and I really want the other to end well with all my heart but I also know that is a unrealistic thought.  Well I hate to end on such a sad note but if I don't I wont be able to stop the tears.

Jasmine

So its once again been a while since my last update but oh well.  Lately I have been doing some thinking about lots of different things. I can not wait till I am off at college where things that happen dont have as much of a meaning, and people arent quiet as stupid.  College is the one thing that I look forward to but yet at the same time kinda am scared of.  The thought of really being out on my own and not coming home to sleep in the same house I have lived in for the past 8 years, if I sound like I'm a little frightened well its cuz I am.  Most of all I am really scared of losing the friends that I have made, for almost none of my friends are going to my college, but the one nice thing is that I will be able to come back to town whenever I want to hang with some of my underclassmen friends. 

Thats just some of the things I have been thinking about, I have also been thinking about why do people change why do relationships change.  But I have decided that people dont change they are the same that they are from the beginning just that now they let you see sides of them that you really cant stand, or just dont respect.  Thus that changes how relationships are. Now I'm not saying that something can happen in someones life and they may form a new outlook on things but deep down they are basically the same.  People lie, people hide, people fear people, lets face it how many of us are the exact same with every single person we know.  I mean I personally know no person that fits that myself included.  Now I am not saying that people cant act different towards a loved one but they shouldnt act all that different.  Now I am in no way saying that I am some perfect person I'm just stating the obvious.

So now thats about all I have to say for this bit, maybe later I will write about the rest of the things that I have been thinking about. But I will end this on a some what happy note.  Everyone is this world deserves to be happy, and to have that one friend that they can turn to no matter what has happened.  Now this may seem a little unrealistic, but come on I know that all of you can think of at least one person that knows everything about you or at least everything that you are willing to share with anyone.

Jasmine